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Name: Justin
Country: United States
State: Georgia
Metro: Marietta
Gender: Male
Interests: Movies, music (Project 86, Blindside, Fuel, Live, etc.) Disc Golf, Baseball, Football, food, and other random crap.
Expertise: Procrastination
Occupation: United State Air Force
Industry: Medical
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AIM:  Cuevz
Member Since:
4/29/2004
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| I'm currently sick. I don't get sick very often...in fact I went through about a 2 year period where I didn't get sick at all. Last September I was sick for about 3 days in Basic Training, only because half the flight got sick from this one guy who wouldn't cover his mouth or wash his hands...I got some meds in warrior week and got better fast (because you don't want to get held back in Basic). I got sick again for all of 2 or 3 days in December when my sick roomate got me because we lived in a room smaller than the one I have here at home. I got over it quick because I went home that weekend for Christmas Exodus, and refused to spend it sick. Joel gave me this sickness last Saturday. At first, I thought it was gonna be nothing, but it's been getting worse (probably because I haven't been resting). I'm taking tomorrow off work to get myself an extra day of rest so I can be better for work this weekend.
I've been helping Josh over at the East Lake CFA for about a month now. It's alright, but wearing on me. I didn't expect to have to work almost 40 hours a week, nor have to be in 5 days at 7AM. I was led to believe it would be a couple days at 7AM and only 30-35 hours a week. Things have been hectic though and the other day-time manager is quitting. I am putting my life on hold with this though....so I need to get on with my job search. I'm also looking to go back to KSU in the fall and finally finish the degree I should have finished 2 years ago. I think I'm ready for school now though, more mature and more dedicated. I have an academic hold that doesn't expire until 2099. We'll see about that....the Reserves will pay for it though, so I'm going to have to contact the education department....
I feel like I'm having to start new with everything all the sudden. Looking for a new job. Planning on moving out as soon as I find that job. I have been going to Christ Church in ATL, but it's just so far that I don't feel I'll ever be able to get more involved than the occasional sunday..so looking for a new church. Going back to school. Could use a woman. New everything. How to start?
I wonder what my life 'picture' will look like 3 months from now? 1 year from now? I'm not trying to rush it by any means, but it is time to take some big steps forward. Can't be a kid forever. Am I ready? Does it matter if I'm ready? | | |
| One weekend a month I have to go work at Dobbins ARB. Tomorrow is the first day of my 2nd UTA. Last month I was given a few things I had to get done before this UTA, which naturally I waited until the last possible day to do. I went by Dobbins today and got a new CAC card since my old one wouldn't scan anymore. Finally, no thug lookin' photo anymore. I also got a Geneva Convention card which basically says I'm a medic and therefore a non-combatant by Geneva Conventions rules and therefore if I'm captured, please don't hurt me.
I have some computer crap I have to do today as well, which I am still procrastinating on (see, I'm on here instead). Tomorrow and Sunday it'll be like being in a different world. Things just are so different from military and civilian life. Completely different set of rules. Civilian life is chiller....but also more stagnant in the sense that you can lose track of time and never get anything done. Which I like, so it's good for me to be shoved every once in a while back into the military swing of things. In addition to working tomorrow and sunday, I also work everyday next week as well....so NEXT sunday will be my next day off...which sux.
May see Ironman tonight...we'll see. | | |
| "The Law came in so that the transgression would increase; but where sin increased, grace abounded all the more, so that, as sin reigned in death, even so grace would reign through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 5: 20-21)
Have you ever sinned and then felt that you couldn't right then ask forgiveness? Or have you ever been so far into your sins that you figure there's no way God could ever forgive you and take you back? It's a sick lie that is so easy to buy into. The above verse is encouraging though. You can't out sin God's grace. This doesn't mean that you should seek to sin to see God's grace expand, that's not what is intended at all. Just that God's grace is boundless and there is nothing you have or ever will do that will catch Him off guard.
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| My dog just walked into the room as I started this post. She is nearing 13 now. Crazy! I remember the day we brought her home, I was 12 back then. A simpler time....just get up and do what is set before you. She is old now. Apparantly she has arthritis so it takes her a while to get up the stairs, and she can't run well (if at all). I've been listening to aton of Thrice lately. They're quickly becoming one of my favorite bands. I discovered them a couple years back when I bought their album 'Artist In The Ambulance'. That cd is awesome and I still enjoy listening to it. My only complaint is that the vocals sounded the same in just about every song. I stopped listening to them for awhile until a couple years back when my brother sent me an Amazon gift card for my birthday. I was able to get 6 or so cd's with it and I took a chance at Thrice's then new cd 'Vheissu,' mainly because of some really good reviews I had read about it. Vheissu was a huge step forward for the bands sound, breaking them free of the 'scream-o' genre and allowing them not to be held to one particular label or sound. They didn't lose any of their intensity, just found better ways to express it. I ended up getting a few of my friends into the cd as well. I saw them last May in Atlanta and they blew me away. Dustin Kensrue (who has a really good solo cd called 'Please Come Home') is the lead singer and his singing and screaming sounded awesome and he was able to hit every note at the end of the concert as well as the beginning.
While I was at Sheppard, I picked up 'The Alchemy Index Vol. 1&2: Fire and Water.' It was the first 2 of 4 EP's that all made up the Alchemy Index album. Each disc is dedicated to a different element (Fire, Water, Earth, and Air) and each disc has a different theme and sound. I guess this post has sounded like a Thrice ad. I just really like their music and Vol. 3&4 come out tomorrow. I'm going to see them on April 26th again.
Music has always meant alot to me. I'm constantly listening to it and can't get enough, even though I have no musical talent myself. Another band I've been into recently is Breaking Benjamin. The first song I heard by them was on the Halo 2 soundtrack, a track called 'Blow Me Away.' I loved that song and proceeded to by the cd 'We Are Not Alone' from Wal-mart. I didn't like the cd at all. I thought it was just generic bland sounding rock and that it didn't stick out from anything else. About a year or so ago I was listening to the radio and heard 'The Diary of Jane' and loved the song. I heard it again at Sheppard and started listening to the cd I had from them again, giving it a 2nd chance. I fell in love with 'Sooner or Later' and soon with the whole cd. There was so much more to their sound than I had originally heard. I bought the 'Phobia' cd at Andrews and loved it too.
I've noticed that out of the 74 subscriptions I have on this thing only 1 person (supposedly David Crowder) still posts on here. I guess xanga has lost it's sway with people. I know tons of people with facebooks or myspaces, but you never get to read anything on those things. Just profiles of what people want you to see and nothing of what they're thinking or what is going on in their lives. I miss being able to see a little of what's going on in my friends lives (even if it was just a doled down post of some of their thoughts). I doubt anybody reads my crap on here any longer. I write mainly for myself now, it allows me to get my thoughts out so that I'm not up half the night thinking.
I'm a little scared and apprehensive towards the future right now. I have no clue what is coming next, and not having the comfort of knowing that scares the hell out of me. I don't think anything 'bad' per say is going to happening (nothing that's gonna catch God off guard). I just wish I had a glimpse of what's around the corner....maybe I'll get blindsided. I just don't know....
Been bowling recently. I had forgetten how much I love bowling....and how much it ticks me off when I don't play up to where I think I should be. | | |
| Todays message in church kinda hit home for me. It was a message on giving and the responsibility of christians to take an active part in helping the church via giving. This struck a chord with me because this has been one of the largest pitfalls in my faith. I have a real giving deficiency. There are several excuses that come to my head such as: I can't afford to (cfa didn't pay great and I'm looking for a job currently); I haven't been a solid part of a congregation in a long time (Piedmont/Woodstock/Faith/Christ Church all in 2 year segments). Regardless the excuse I throw out, it still doesn't justify disobeying a command of God. I have sinned against You Lord and seek your grace. I think the whole 'not able to afford it' excuse has caused me to be a less generous person that I ought to be. I always mean and even sometimes desire to give to people in different ways. To be known as a generous person, but it really hasn't played through. Pray for me that this will change. Another part of it is that I have never been disciplined with my money. Most of it goes to food. I need to tighten my wallet when it comes to that instead of always saying, 'oh it's only $5' or whatever.
Another problem of mine is that I have alot of anger. I hide it as well as I can, but it's still there buried deep within. I realized it the other day when I was reading in Job. I couldn't finish reading, so I went and took a shower and it all just kinda came to my mind. I'm not sure why I have this anger, though some of it can be related to pride, which has been a struggle of mine for a long time. Funny, not like I have much to be proud about....also, note: self-pity is another form of pride...Anyways, I need it gone.
We've started reading a book called 'The Reason for God' by Timothy Keller. It's a book written to defend christianity against modern skepticism. The main thesis is that all forms of doubts and disbelief (i.e.: 'how can there be only true religion' or 'how can anyone claim to know truth') are actually a whole different set of beliefs. Along with this book, we've started up in Job. Last year Josh and I did this sort of thing together and it seemed to go really well, it was an awesome blessing for me. This time, we have a few more people. My fear is that with more people, we could get off topic more easily and it would disrupt our bible reading. However, I'm praying and trusting in God that He will use this to better all of us. Perhaps having more people will allow us more views and thoughts about the reading and encourage stronger discussion....I hope so.
I need a job soon. God help me to trust you through this.... | | |
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